My
Dream Girl
I could for many ways
to say "I Love You"
but I could never wish
for someone more special
to say to it to..
I could wish for better words
to describe to you
how you make me feel...
but I could never wish
for anyone better
to whiser those words to..
I could wish on all
the stars in the sky
that I could make every dream
in your heart come true...
but I don't have to wish
for my own dreams...
All my dreams came true
when your Love
came into my life...
So what if today
she is not with me, I still love her like I used to, not because I never found
anyone but it is because I always found my heart and mind busy in loving her...
She is Ranu a first class Commerce graduate,
presently studying in NIIT. She is from my city and was my classmate also
in NIIT. When I came back to my city Jodhpur in december from Nepal I was a independent
man without any hassles. I used to take life as it came to me but coming back
to my birth place made me grew in my confidense level. I thought whatever
I do out here there is someone to back me up.
Frankly when I saw
her first time in NIIT, I was having no intensions of making a long term relationship
with her. After few classes She took a break for few days due to some personal
reason and when she came back I was the one who helped her to cover her missed
classes.We became friends and used to spend around six hours everyday in NIIT.
I was a very deep
listener of my brain and in process I came very close to my heart also. I
found that no body is complete without a pair.There should be someone to balance
the biological equation of forming a pair and that is the stage where dependensy
kreeps into the scene, a mental dependensey, a physical dependensy and a vision
blockage. I confessed my love to her and she replied in the same way. I was
so happy, my whole body was not in my control and from there my love story
started...
She is very cute,
her presence make feel so cool that I leave my all tensions behind and just
stucked with her. My family was agree but her family was not so we decided
to run and do love marriage, I did all arrangements and just see my luck,
just one day before our marriage her family gets the information that we are
going to to run. They locked her up and tourchered her badly, they told her
if you don't sacrifise your love then we all will kill ourself and the reason
will be you and she did that under pressure of her family and that was the
end the of my love story...
Now she don't talks
to me anyomre but one thing I know is she still loves me cuz evertime she
see me, she just starts crying.It's been long but still I cry, I just can't
forget her. So many times I tried to convince my inner instinct but he never
listens to me, he is always busy in loving her. Then tell me is it wrong to
miss someone to feel from the core of your heart that you really require someone
who should be there with you every time mentally of whom you can feel the
presense of a person in his or her absense also. I am not a late go'er to
bed but after this I can't sleep in nights and that's why I have restricted
myself to drinks as an excuseable solution to silent my inner instinct. I
don't know when this is gonna stop, may be after my death...
Ranu you are the one who taught me how to live, how to love, how to smile, how to cry, you changed the way I used to live and I really thank you from the bottom of my heart for this. I am not angry from your decision, I don't want any answer for this, but just one thing puzzels me till today is do you also still miss me like the way I miss you, Do you still cry whenever you see those places where we used to spend our day like the way I cry, Do you also cry when you see any love happening and see our love in it like the way I do... I just want to request you one thing, no matter if you forget everything, please never forget that there was a guy who loved you madly and He still loves you.
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WebMasterHimanshu Sharma